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Hey friends! How's everything? I know i'll get answers like..... " aiyah..... why bother?" or "like this lor.. Wat's more?" or "ok la... not bad" or "boring.....". Is there any " GREAT" ?? haha.
When problem comes, we should remain calm. WHy? So that we can uderstand the situation well, analyse well and I'm sure it can be solved in no time. WHy am i saying this for? I also donno. THis is a place for me to feel free to say anything i want. Right?
People, don't use this as a material to make people feel hurt and uneasy. Get it?
5/28/2004 10:52:00 pm
Hey earthie! I'm back.
Didn't really hav enough time to spend with my computer. How much time do i need??? 6hrs bah.. *opps* ami asking too much?? I really need a very very good time with my computer. Normally when i get to play it, i'll feel damn tired and i will be stretching to all directions. My eyes will be soooo dry like sand and i couldn't take it anymore. *VOoOm*... Go to bed. hahaha.
It somehow hurtz me when my friends treats me nice. I donno why. I feel so touched!!! but.... when they suddenly switch their mood. I will be like... " wah lau....... " and gets uneasy with them. I'm a gemini, someone who keeps changing. I think i expect pple to remain unchanged but i shall be the one who keeps changing. Very bad hor.
My pimples are coming back! oh gosh..... My dream is.... to have the best complexion throughout my entire life. Lol. Not the best maybe... BUT at least without pimplesssss. ARgH. Haha.
Hey friends, it's late. Go to bed early if not you'll get pimples. Don wan that to happen right???? WAN AN!!!
I shall *box* you all to sleep. KEke.
5/27/2004 10:41:00 pm
argh... typed a looooong paragraph and my papa closed it. Give me one more day and i'll update
5/26/2004 10:29:00 pm
very sleepy.... *yawnz* got so much things to say and i was waiting for the chance to update this entry. HOWEVER, my computer kept hanging!! So fed up. It's damn slow you know... I've been very patient all this while to everything sickening thing. I've already reached the stage wheremi just keep shutting down the com directly after every 10mins.
Was at home the whole day, nv even step out one toe. Computer is my main source of entertainment and YET, so bu zhen qi la. haha. In the end, i spend 2hrs sleeping, 1hr eating, 2hrs watching tv, 1/2hr practicing organ and i think thaty's about it. I think my friend is angry with me now or wat.. ok lor..
That Mdm Loke, is really a... very free person. Mei shi zao shi zuo.... Nv give me salary, don talk so much. <(*n.n*)>
5/23/2004 12:30:00 am
Today is a bit... too much for tolerance le la.. *scratch head* Many things are waiting for me to put them in order.. Just gotta sacrifice some of wat-i-wan for others.. I'm about to prepare for that concert.. He ust be thinking.. "i thought you said you're not going... then why are you goin with your friends now... izzit becoz you don like to go with me.... blah blah..." hey... No ok... I wanna go with you. But the timing is a bit out of control.. How am i gonna plan? Especially when everyone is getting upset about wat-i-can't-get.
Sorry la... I know my arrangement is kinda sux... I just wanna ensure that everyone is comfortable with it... I just wanna make sure everybody gets wat-we-want.. I just wanna make it a happy one. If i offended anyone of you... sorry...
5/21/2004 05:17:00 pm
Heart of Gold
What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
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WoW!!! I've just placed the music in here. I know it's a bit noisy but i still hope you all will like it! Thanks to those who helped me. Xie xie. xing ku le. LoL.
Today is a degrading day... for some reason,,, very KNS la... I just hope pple will us maintain their basic manners. *watch out* it's important. None of us are kings and queens.
Next, Dan is rather depressed nowadays.. I feel that his words may be harsh, he may be stubborn and I'm a little irritated by his attitude towards problems, he is perfectly nice. Whatever he do, his motive is not to harm. He just think that that's the right way and he'll just do it. If we can't appreciate it, we don't even have the rights to say he isn't good enough or wat in the first place. He don't own us anything. yet he's willing to give.
Those who are not very happy today.. *smile la!*
5/19/2004 10:11:00 pm
HoHo! how's everybody today?? I'm rather happy, relaxed and enjoying my free time. I know i don have much free time left.. so... These few days, after that mid-yr papers, i have been sitting in front of the tv, staring blankly at it. So RELAXED. why? it has been a long time eversince i can sit there blankly, not worrying about anything else.. but.. there was one thing i'm worried for. Him, sick. He got fever and some bloody flu or watever.. Just kept caring and asking him questions becoz i can't do anything to make him recover. =) hope he's alright. This is the first time i'm really caring for someone without feeling forceful or being told. I just care becoz i feel like it.
Actually... I hate to care but i know i must. I mean, i hate to care for anyone, not becoz it's him. OKOK! i shall change it. I don like to care.. coz.. I feel that seldom people will care about me.. Probably it's becoz i don look as though as there's something to care about. true la. LoL =D. but i just love being cared. so comforting. yeah? I know i must care for others. why? Coz nobody care for me doesn't mean i should not care for others. wat if that person didn't receive care and then don care for others and then so on and on... There will be no CARE in this already-very-sickening world. I'm glad that my mummy still care for me. *muacks* as well as my daddy. Even though i have minor pain like, headache, they still help me to think of some way to cure it. Once i know someone cares for my headache, it'll be gone. Cool??
I'm feeling a little afraid now.. Afraid of my future... Afraid to study. Feeling uneasy now. cannot relax le. must get back to study. Well, i'm not the only one. yeah??? That johnathon said he will help me do that song to something i wanted. HE BETTER MAKE IT. DON'T DESTROY MY HOPE ON YOU AR! I wrote this to pressurize you!
5/18/2004 04:50:00 pm
Haiyoyoyoyo... Today. headache continues... but stopped now. still have the smell of panadol in my mouth. ~.~||| I need some comments. some directions to tell me what is right and wat is wrong!
I went to the foodcourt with him to eat. While waitin for him to order the food. I buried my face in my arms on the table. erh... know wat i'm talking about? I was lying so peacefully when suddenly, a aunty(one who clears the plate) came to me and sort of "shouted". "gal! why are you lying down here?? If you wanna sleep, pls go home and sleep, DON sleep here. Please go home. How can you sleep here? very RUDE you know! the table is so dirty. so rude..." (-.-)||||| okokokok... watever.. I gave her a smile and sat up properly..... I really donno if i'm right or wrong.. Is it really rude to do that? I've checked the table before i lie down la... I'm really puzzled. Some said i was rude, some said i wasn't. however, just at the moment after being disturbed by the aunty, a couple aged around(40+), said "gal. If i were you, i would have told her off!" again... i just smiled. so.. am i right or am i wrong.. I feel that i'm partly right and partly wrong. I shouldn't have lie down there where everybody's eating.. but.. she could have use a nice tone.. I thought everything was over.. After he came back, he sat down and eat, that "civilised" aunty stared at me, as if she's gonna eat me up in anytime. then i heard that couple saying, "why is she so rude. Nobody complain?".
I told him that incident.. actually i din really wanna tok about it but that damn aunty kept staring at me and i can't keep it anymore....... i wonder why is she staring at me.. so fiercely you know.. I even gave her a smile. wah lau.. i respect her lex. despite her LOUD "teaching". I feel so ashamed.. especially no one was beside me that time.. and my damn head is getting heavier. I almost cried out. I really don't know if I'm right or wrong. I'm sure that i don't deserve that you know... So much things I've kept inside.. and now learning to forget them... I can't help it to say some out.. If not.. *memory full*. When i told him that.. well, he said, nvm la.. *erh...* ok... I also can't expect him to do anything right.. i just felt so... discouraged.. No one has ever tell me that i'm rude when that person don't even know me. in fact, i don think anyone has ever said it to me.
5/15/2004 11:03:00 pm
You have an animal soul! Arent you lucky! You are
very interactive with animals and can
understand them even if you dont speak their
tongue. The birds arent afraid of you, deer can
eat out of your palm, and every dog will roll
over for you. As an Animal Soul, you follow
your instinct, sometimes making rash decisions,
and not thinking properly. If you dont
understand something, you reject and push it
away, and can get very disastrous when angry.
At the same time, youre a very kind person who
can make people feel better, and are
understanding and compassionate. One of the
great things about you is that your rarely
jealous, and know that you have to share and
help other people if you want to survive this
world. You are very loyal and optimistic, and
can make it through the toughest times.
What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!
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Wow!!! visited Jialin's blog and did this quiz. I agree that I'm an animal lover. but i don really know how to handle them lex.. Even my notti rabbits can drive me crazy. haha.. Like wat I've just said... "notti rabbits" NOTTI!!
I really like animals.. Especially when i'm not familiar with this animal and yet get so close to it and it starts licking or watever, very COOL manx... There was a time when i was waiting for my parents at my void deck there, a very cute dog, very short but not very long or big, came at my foot and looked up at me. ^(O.O)^. and gave me a sweet and innocent face.. His nose was like.. moving up and down. wow.. my heart almost melt. I stretch out my hand, bend down a little, and touched it's forehead. and it just looked at me. ^(@.@)^
This dog is very clever you know. it stays in the same block as mine. everytime when it's owner bring it out, she just need to say "go go, go mama shop" then he just went there himself. then the owner will be very far behind. wahaha. so cute.
Of course... There are some bad experience.. *argh* there was once, i was playing with my neighbour at the corridor there when a tiny dog came and charged towards us. we ran up and up and UP and UP!! the block. it was chasing us.. my friend managed to get rid of it when she stopped moving and let it sniff her. me lex. i just ran up and up and UP... and... I forget the ending le. Hehe...
5/13/2004 01:58:00 pm
5/12/2004 08:33:00 pm
today, after physics paper... when to buy the watever macdonalds' ice-cream cone with lee ming. My lunch for today was... potato chips(hot and spicy) and ice-cream cone and steam egg~ yeah all of them are my favourite.. But i must pay a price for all these stuff... I'll get headache and pimples. PIMPLES!! arghhhh
Nowadays.. wasn't very pleasant.. erh.. many of them are quite moody.. me lex.. trying to be the anti-moody type whenever they are moody... I know my face is very.. emotion-less.. trying to control my temper.. I can get irritated easily..
Looking for someone to dou wo kai xin. wait wait wait... WAIT! and ermm.. ended up quarreling. aiyah... sian......... don wanna tok about it. sickening.... at this moment, at this point of time, i have to cheer myself up. ridiculous..
Just finished my tuition and headache again. Haiyo. haha. anyway.... who cares.. I'm healthy lex.
x+x+x A friend hears the song in my heart and sings it to me when my memory fails x+x+x
5/12/2004 04:50:00 pm
*stretch~!!!* today i studied alot..... A LOT!! now, resting. *phew*.. There's so much for me to study and i can't believe that i'm able to sleep twice. Hahaha. Had a tiny *ahHHh..CHOO* and ate a tiny drop of medicine. ^(-.-)^zZz...
That olivia wanna give me stress izzit~ kept asking me about wat topic had i covered and when i told her I'm going to sleep again, she sounded as though she's gonna faint or wat. Hahaha.
I think I didn't do well for my FN work ah... I refer my friends' work and they've got lots of things. Oh my.... *panic* well.. wat's done, is done..
You know... Most of the time.. I don trust people.. and i will often treat them badly. However.. when i trust them... they will treat me like wat I've used to treat them... I must learn to trust, they must learn not to hurt. I'm not referring to anything. I'm was just searching through the net and came across... a phrase which says .. **I always prefer to believe the best of everybody; it saves so much trouble** True. yeah..?
**The only way to have a friend is to be one** Last time i DON'T take initiatives to make friends around me.. I'll wait for pple to talk to me FIRST. When i was in Pri.Sch, my mother used to take me to a church. Not because she wanted me to believe in watever whichever, i think she just wanted me to socialize.. HOWEVER... for that past 3-4 yrs, I didn't make any friends. Yes, i did. But is those type when we see each other, we just smile then walk pass. We don't talk much and whenever there's gathering, I'll come. But i just sit there keeping quiet throughout the whole thing. The "teachers" there and the friends there did talk to me.. but i just don't feel that I am able to fit in that group.. Even those new memeber who just joined in for 1-2 weeks, they are so close together. Me lex, 3-4yrs le, still like that. Hhaha.
They are around 3-4yrs older than me... I used to think that it's age problem. Now.. I think that it was becaause i didnt take initiative. AND! keeping quiet is easy.. keeping very quiet is a little hard only.. but... keeping very quiet while others are talking happily... Is a misery.
5/09/2004 06:49:00 pm
*hMmmMMmm.....* it's a brand new morning. everyone's still alive with me despite the "torture" of that FN work. Hahaha. Stayed up till 2 somthing to finish up my work. Not very late though.
That prawn head (Mr Soo).... Is a very very lazy teacher. He'll just do things for the beneficts of himself. Eg, normally we'll be going for 3rd recess, suddenly he will force us to go for the 2nd recess.. and you know why? It's becoz he's hungry... O.o!!! other teachers is... because she don wan to distract the lesson in between. for PRAWN HEAD lex,,, becoz he's hungry. But of course, we took advantage of it an requested for ealier 2nd recess.
Yesterday night, olivia was doing fn with me and we shared somethings in common. Things like... being very sensitive... petty... and then others blame us for that. Erm... well... I said something out of my wisdom(Wahaha) to solve the questions we both have.
*:..FiReFly..:* -- by A-teens
When I said go I never meant away
You ought to know the freaky games we play
could you forgive and learn how to forget
hear me as I'm calling out your name
[[Firefly]] come back to me
make the night as bright as day
I'll be looking out for you
tell me that your lonely too
[[firefly]] come lead me on
follow you into the sun
that's the way it ought to be
[[firefly]] come back to me
You and me
we shared a mistery
we were so close
like honey to the bee
And if you tell me how to make you understand
I'm minor in a major kinda way
[[Firefly]] come back to me
make the night as bright as day
I'll be looking out for you
tell me that your lonely too
[[firefly]] come lead me on
follow you into the sun
that's the way it ought to be
[[firefly]] come back to me
Fly [[firefly]] through the sky
come and play with my desire
don't be long don't ask why
I can't wait another night
5/08/2004 09:46:00 am
very sleepy. Trying to sleep this evening but calls kept coming in non-stop, mother kept talking to me non-stop, father kept asking me questions non-stop. Haiyo... Can't they see that I'm sleeping ar?? alamak.. alwys like tt de.. Feeling a bit nausea..
I've forgotten to add something to the yesterday's discouraging day. After that damn, hell-y FN... I went home. Trying to relax, wanted to reheat the canned braised peanuts(yummy!). and.... amazingly... That can caught fire. I heard "pic-pat" and i peeped at it. Wahhoo!! a burst of flame shoot out from the bottm of that can. I quickly stop the process of heating i didn't touch that can anymore...
Today.. Hmm... feeling rather miserable... or.. very miserable... I've done badly in everything.... My chinese paper really went down the drain... Today, was like that picture of the eeyore with a raining-cloud right on top of his head only. Everywhere he went, that dark cloud followed him. However, my friends managed to cheer me up unintentionally. That earth poon even gave me three punches. "thank you" very much. Haha. During Physics, Michelle shared with me a joke. *giggles* It shall be the joke of day, by Yvonne Lim's encounter.
Have you ever felt like killing the mrt whenever you don't managed to get onto it before that damn door shut? hahahahaha.. Here's a tip WE should LEARN:
1) *chuck* a CONVERSE slipper into the sliding door,
2) *throw* the slipper instead
A mother actually chucked her converse slipper in between the sliding door of the MRT. Her daughter was very proud of it and said.. "wah.... MAME ni hao li hai lex!!!" *n.n* HAHAHA. and my friend was in the MRT and she witnessed that incident. Just imagine that the mother will shout "HOooOOII!!", lift up her foot, take the converse slipper, and then stuff it straight between the door. To prove that this method usable, the door opened.
erh.... Funny anot...? Just imagine the scene can?? imAGINE!!!
*Do not pray for an easy life, pray for the strength to endure a difficult one*
5/05/2004 09:54:00 pm
Today.. was quite a bad day for me... Had been down on luck...
Firstly.. I did very badly for my Chinese paper.. feel so stressed... I donno which part of the my CHinese paper i will do well... just very lan(lousy)...
Then... I went for the FN practical.. That was hell man.... *argh..* donno wat i'm trying to do... I started off preparing those ingredients in a very lazy mood. Stir and sitr the sauce to get the right taste. That sauce was damn salty. Then just as i set off to boiled that salty sauce.. Mr Soo came in and made a big fuss about that idiot luncheon meat...... "HEY!! WAT"S THAT!! It's a pork!!! I'm gonna send you down to see the principal. IT's a VERY serious offence!! Don't you know that this is a Hallal Kitchen?? How DARE you bring luncheon meat!!" and he keeps repeating on and on... He gave me a shock out of my life.... It was lucky of me that i haven cook that luncheon meat but i placed it on a chopping board. Then i said, "but i haven even touch it." then he said "BUT YOU TOCUHED THE CHOPPING BOARD and the SPOON!!" oh my god... The spoon just happened to be next to it.. he then asked me to call my mother afterwards to check if it is a chicken or a pork luncheon meat. He kept repeating that he's gonna send me down to see principal. *irritated* I have enough of that principal and he still wan me to speak to her... *really irritated*!!!
I wasn't the only one who used pork. Another gal used it and even started steaming it. The weird thing is that he didn't kick up a big fuss about it. only me. Where got such things de!! She already use the cooking untensils to to cook it. I onmly put in on the damn chopping board and he's only threatening me. My point is not that i also wan that gal to get scolding but is why did he threaten me only... After that damn threatening.. My mood of cooking worsened...
When i wanted to cook the oyster sauce, first i'll start frying the onions and garlics, that MR SOO go and put that oyster sauce back into the fridge leaving me to search high and low for it. by the time... the onions and garlic turned solid black... But thanks to the birthday gal, Jialin, she was there to encourage me and she told me it's ok. That makes me feel so much more better. In the end.. The disaster in that hell kitchen is over..
I thought that everything's gonna be fine.. Today is mama's birthday and i thought that i'll have a nice time afterwards. but WHO KNOWS..... I took the effort to dress up nicely, went to the resturant, and started my dinner.. Then... I acidentally spilt the cup of crysanthement(watever sickening name is that) tea and wet my skirt and shirt and my hp. *argh*.......... haiz.. Feel so sad... sad because i was discouraged to feel happy.. kns... the waitress was very kind, she helped me to clear up that mess. While i was wiping my clothes, my elbow ALMOST hit the other waitress which may cause her to drop the dishes...
After that, while queueing up to buy the egg tarts.. My daddy discovered a blacky disgusting substances on my shirt. *sian...* can't i look nice and clean and proper just for one day...?
When i got home.. I received a msg for my friend saying that i'm acting blah blah blah... And we took a long time to clear the misunderstandings. In the end, we're still friends. *n.n*
Eversince my mother's mother is sick.. my mother had been quite stressed.. every year during her birthday.. she'll cry to herself.. Last night she did the same. Haiz...... i don like here.
---- take me away please...
sorry friends if i... give you a black face... sometimes.. i really need my friends to console me... but i just donno how to tell them... they also couldn't because they have their own problem too...
+++Happiness is a by-product of an effort to make someone else happy++
xxxGetting people to [[like]] you is merely the other side of [[liking]] themxxx
5/04/2004 10:05:00 pm
alamak. had to retype my entry again. Computer hanged. where was i...?
oh ya. yesterday was a rather fun day although i spend most of the time with myself which was wat i chose. After the english paper, i went out with him for lunch and went home. I abandoned my friends. LOl.
Anway, I spend rest of da afternoon with my lovable rabbits. Each of them is ren jian ren ai. Haha. not bull-shitting ok.. If there's a chance.. i shall put their lovable pics in my lovable bloggy. however, so far, i still don't know how to put pics in here. Shall ask some experts.
I let my rabbit out at the corridor to play. They're damn piggy. something like a pig-rabbit. Once i let them out, they straightaway hopped towards the plants and lay their chubby body flat onto the ground. Haha. No matter how hard i had pushed them, they won't get up. HaiyoOo.. When i came nearer to them and patted them softly, they will sort of like lower their heads. Very *lovely*. Suddenly, they would get up and start hopping around. Wat i meant is, really a round, in circles. And they even go around me. Hehe. Well.. It was quite a lively afternoon. Then, i took out my library books and started reading in front of my rabbits silently. I have only up till 9th May to finish up two books, all thanks to him, and for the information, I'm a slow reader. Hahaha.
That afternoon, i didn't msg anyone, not even him, becoz i couldn't find my charger.
Finally, when i found my charger, i quickly msg my friend to explain to her about why i *abandone* them. She was understanding and said that it's ok. *n.n*
This morning when i checked my friendster, a classmate from the physics calss wrote me a testimonial. He said something like.. "she's a quiet person and when you know her better, you'll know she act one. opp." alamak.. he knows i'm acting. Lol. anyway, nothing surprising. I am acting to be quiet but i've dine a DICS test and it says that this is my this is my innerself. Whenever i come in to the physics class, i'm really quiet. I don hav much people to talk to but to listen to Mr Lim's lesson. I find it very difficult for him to teach this class coz most of them doesn't seem to appreciate him. All i could do was to pay full-attention to his lesson so that he won't feel that disappointed with his students. Sometimes.. who knows, I'll be dreaming away for half of his lessons. Couldn't concentrate on one thing for long lex..
I acted to be quiet because i feel a bit lonely... My friend(A) had a little quarrel with my other friend(B) and i feel that things had changed between me and (A). And i'm no longer interested in listening to (A) le.. so.. yah.. just a bit lonely. can't expect me to laugh and joke to myself right...
I feel that i'm alwys acting.. *sigh*... acting good/bad to suit the atmosphere... To make things the way i want..
5/01/2004 09:49:00 am